Thanks Jenn! So tomorrow morning is my transfer. Excitement and nervousness are two emotions that best describe how I feel. Fingers and toes crossed with my prayers in
Best wishes to anyone who is having their transfer tomorrow
5dt is done so the TWW begins. We transferred a blast and an early blast. The 6 remaining were still compacting so maybe they will make it to day 6 for freezing. 1st IVF we transferred 2 that we just compacting. Thoughts with everyone on their journey today!
.5dp5dt - I forgot to test out my trigger prior to transfer, so the evening of the transfer I took a home pregnancy test. Negative! Glad I don't have to question is the positive is still the Pregnyl in my system.
1dp5dt - today I went to work. :( should have taken the day off. Had minor cramping, thinking it was a combination of being on my feet to long and the procedure.
Today is 5dp5dt Minor sporadic cramps, a little nausea. At this point I am way to nervous to test, my heart can't handle a BFN at the beginning of a work week.
Stay strong KBT! Hold off on testing! My doc always warned me against it because you could get false positive or false negative. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers :)
I would like to thank each of your ladies for your words of support during this process. No one really understands unless theyre experiencing it themselves.
The irony in this is the one person who knows is pregnant after I referred her to my RE because of ovulation problems and for her first trimester besides her husband, I was the only person to know. We would secretly exchange updates on our visit (Im sure everyone thought we were gossiping in the office) It's hilarious because I am educating her on what to expect, the various test and she is able to share what she is feeling.
I broke down and POAS a few mins ago. The not knowing was just agonizing, especially since I have no symptoms. So what did I find out? Nothing conclusive....there was an almost invisible shadow of a second line. Is it a second line,or are my eyes imagining the line when you angle it/rotate it?? Well regardless of the outcome, right now, it gave me the hope and encouragement of the possibility thereof!
I have one more test, I will use on Friday then my beta is Sat.
So here I am, the eve before the official 9dp5dt time. (Transfer time was noonish). I am in bed wide awake. I contemplated testing before going to sleep, so surprised I didn't POAS when I went to empty my bladder.
Part of me is claiming the BFP and trying to figure out a creative way to tell family and friends. Questioning: Can I hide it until we are all together on Thanksgiving, by then I should even know the sex.
Then I think we'll what if I get the BFP but my beta doesn't double...ugh that would be worst then a BFN
And then there is BFN.
Here is to a 6:00 am HPT. (Prayers in, fingers crossed)
Best wishes to everyone on their journey, and for those POAS in the am hoping for all BFP
Confession #2, I did fall a sleep but it was such a light sleep with anticipation so.......I figured get up and test so you can rest. So I succumbed to the pressure. I POAS and laid it on the side of the tub. The window quickly filled with moisture but it seemed for ever for the first line to appear. Then it seemed like a flickering second line. I wiped my eyes because no way in the world should there be a flickering line. My eyes and mind definitely playing tricks on me. I held it on my hands, the two minutes seemed like eternity. Finally without a doubt, a second line.
So on 9dp5dt, well really 8.75dp5dt of a 4BB blast and an early blast, I am pregnant. Thank you God.
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Best wishes to anyone who is having their transfer tomorrow
1dp5dt - today I went to work. :( should have taken the day off. Had minor cramping, thinking it was a combination of being on my feet to long and the procedure.
Minor sporadic cramps, a little nausea. At this point I am way to nervous to test, my heart can't handle a BFN at the beginning of a work week.
I would like to thank each of your ladies for your words of support during this process. No one really understands unless theyre experiencing it themselves.
The irony in this is the one person who knows is pregnant after I referred her to my RE because of ovulation problems and for her first trimester besides her husband, I was the only person to know. We would secretly exchange updates on our visit (Im sure everyone thought we were gossiping in the office) It's hilarious because I am educating her on what to expect, the various test and she is able to share what she is feeling.
Here is to 6dp5dt.
I broke down and POAS a few mins ago. The not knowing was just agonizing, especially since I have no symptoms. So what did I find out? Nothing conclusive....there was an almost invisible shadow of a second line. Is it a second line,or are my eyes imagining the line when you angle it/rotate it?? Well regardless of the outcome, right now, it gave me the hope and encouragement of the possibility thereof!
I have one more test, I will use on Friday then my beta is Sat.
Until then I accept that I am PUPO
Part of me is claiming the BFP and trying to figure out a creative way to tell family and friends. Questioning: Can I hide it until we are all together on Thanksgiving, by then I should even know the sex.
Then I think we'll what if I get the BFP but my beta doesn't double...ugh that would be worst then a BFN
And then there is BFN.
Here is to a 6:00 am HPT. (Prayers in, fingers crossed)
Best wishes to everyone on their journey, and for those POAS in the am hoping for all BFP
So on 9dp5dt, well really 8.75dp5dt of a 4BB blast and an early blast, I am pregnant. Thank you God.