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  • olearyeolearye Posts: 65
    I am so sorry tomigrl, I know it must be disappointing but like the ladies say keep your head up and your next period is right around the corner.

    I am doing ok, waiting for my next appointment on valentines day, wondering if they will attempt a Doppler, hoping they do. Had a few days where I wasn't
    Nauseated, boobs didn't hurt etc but my symptoms are back so as much as it sucks to feel this way I am just happy I am pregnant.

    Keep us updated for sure and again I am
    Sorry, hang in there.
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Becky-yes it's amazing how exciting it is to get ur period in these situations!! Lol

    Thanks Jaime! :)

    Olearye- so good to hear! Yes, I had some periods of being down in the dumps. But I know it's going to happen for me. It will just make it that much more exciting! :)
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    I have to say this has been the longest month I can ever remember! I think the waiting gets harder each month. I have also come to realize that this is a wait that no one can understand unless you've lived it. My friends who are wishing me the best in all this don't even understand how long a month can be in this journey. And for my journey it's not even the 2 week wait that I am tortured with, but a 4-6 week wait each cycle. My friends on here certainly understand better than most!

    It's hard to believe my period has finally arrived. It is right on time because of the birth control pills but it seemed like it would never come. I have my baseline u/s on Monday. Hopefully there will be no more cysts and I can start my injections Monday night. After 12 months I think it's about time for IUI #2!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Becky- I could not even begin to imagine going through what you have had to. Makes me feel guilty for even stressing about the 2ww. you are a trooper!!! I admire you!!!
    I have a sister that is single that did this about 6 years ago, so its nice to have her. But this bulletin board has been such a huge help!!!!
    I am sending VERY positive thoughts your way for Monday!!! Good luck!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    Step 1 is a success! I do not have any cysts. I started my injections tonight. I am starting my u/s and bloodwork monitoring on day 8 (Thursday) just in case I would ovulate early this month. I'm hoping just coming off birth control will have me back on track and I won't have to worry about that. I do have some other meds just in case we need to stop ovulation. I'm hoping I don't have to use it because it's $100 a shot (literally). I am going to be a nervous wreck all week but I'm feeling positive this month. There is still a lot of time for things to go wrong so I am hoping the next week goes quickly and perfectly.

    Tomigrl, I'm thinking about you on your 2ww. How are you doing? I hope it all works out for you this month and we can both have success!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Becky!! Thats so exciting!!! What wonderful positive news!!!! YAY!!!! I will have you in my thoughts, and this is your time girl! you so deserve it! Im grinning big for you!

    I've had a rough 10 days, just feeling very negative for some reason. Trying to keep busy and keep my hopes up. My blood test is on the 11th, but I am sure I will home test in the next couple days. I have no patience! :)
  • olearyeolearye Posts: 65
    Tomigrl, I know I totally tested early and was super bummed when it came out negative because it was too early. I got a BFP on 11 days post iui. When are you going to test? I cannot wait to hear!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    I already stocked up on dollar store tests so I have no doubt I will be testing before the blood test. From what I understand the dollar store tests are just as good as the expensive ones. I have no patience either. Keep your spirits up Tomigrl and I can't wait to hear how you make out! My first 2ww I was so positive the first week and not so much the 2nd week. This whole journey is a very emotional roller coaster ride! Hang in there!!!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Haha, well that is sooooo good to hear! Now I can confess!! My first IUI I was sooooo positive, and had really high spirits. And I think because of that last time, it has really had me crashing back to reality. LOL, last time, I tested like day 3, and watched the decrease of HCG from the shot, until day 10 and it was negative, and stayed that way. I waited until a few days ago this time, and my tests have been all over the place! I tested negative day 9, and was crushed. Then tested again, postitive, then tested next day and such a faint line that you really have to use your imagination to see it. I have not one single symptom. Im being neurotic and I need to stop. :-/ Luckily, I am nurse, so I can get the tests from work. So free!
  • olearyeolearye Posts: 65
    Wait tomigrl you had a positive? Am I reading this right? I am a nurse too!!!!
  • BanditBandit Posts: 348
    Congrats olearye, not sure if I have said that before. Yeah.

    I tested early to and they were negative as well and look I have a wonderful son who is babbling in the other room while I type this.
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    LOL, yes, you are correct! I had a negative then a positive then a negative!!! :-/ Today I am only day 11, but I just tested and its a BFP again! My blood test isnt until the 11th though! Thats so cool you are nurse too!!!! :)

    Thats so fun Anissa! :)
  • olearyeolearye Posts: 65
    Omg omg congratulations!!! Are you just so excited? I was on day 11 when I finally got a BFP. I am so excited for you!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Im SOOOOOOO excited,but nervous still bc the test results have gone back and forth!!! I am looking forward to my blood test on Monday!!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    Congrats Tomigrl! I understand being nervous. I don't blame you. I'm sure Monday seems so far off from now! I can't wait to hear how your blood test goes.

    I had my day 8 u/s and bloodwork. I'm very excited but confused again! I thought they really wanted me to wait until day 14 for my IUI. Today my u/s showed a 14mm follicle on day 8 which is really early. I was worried they wouldn't be happy, but they seem ok with it. They said the follicle, my lining, and all my bloodwork looks good. I go back in the morning for u/s and bloodwork again. I may end up taking shots to stop from ovulating for another day or 2 but will never make it to day 14. But since everything looks good I am very excited my big day may be sooner than expected!! I can't wait...
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Becky- Thats SO EXCITING!!!!! Here is to IUI #2!!!! its going to be your lucky number too!!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    I never in a million years realized how complicated and stressful it could be to have a baby. Just when I think things are smooth sailing it's one step forward 2 steps back! But I think I might be going forward again.

    My day 9 bloodwork I had a 15mm follicle and a 12mm follicle which looked good but my estrodial level went down. I was told that could mean poor egg quality. They increased my Follistim to 75 units. I was also told not to worry. I was pretty good but by this morning I was stressed out.

    Today, day 10 u/s showed my 15mm stayed at 15mm and my 12mm went up to 13mm. I didn't think this was so good especially with the increase of Follistim. But my estradiol went back up and the doc sounded positive. I did 100 units of Follistim this afternoon and go back for u/s and bloodwork again tomorrow. So I guess I'm still on track...

    I was really hoping for a stress free cycle but should have known better. I was afraid they'd cancel my cycle again. So far so good I guess. I'm hoping for my IUI in the next couple of days.

    I need as many prayers as I can get!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    OMGoodness Becky!! That sounds so stressful, you must be a saint that you have the patience to deal with all that!!! I will say some prayers for you for sure!! Good luck!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    UGH! My follicles didn't grow at all since yesterday. I'm waiting for my bloodwork results now. I could cry...
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    OHHHHHH NO! I'm so sorry....I prayed for you at church this am, I will keep at it....let me know what blood shows....
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    Thanks for the prayers Tomigrl! I missed church this morning because I was too busy getting stuck SEVEN times while they tried to draw my blood. The weekend lab tech is TERRIBLE and my veins are very difficult. She eventually had to call someone else to come in to draw it. Therefore I was there a while longer than expected and missed church. So I appreciate the prayers.

    I am very confused. I guess I should just put all my confusion and frustration aside and just relax and see what happens. It's so hard to do. I need to just trust God will provide when he is ready.

    My Estradiol went up from 250 to 442! I was afraid with my follicles not showing any growth it would have went back down or stayed the same. So the doctor was really happy with the increase. What I'm really confused about is...he had me do my HcG trigger tonight for my IUI on Tuesday. That should be very exciting news because I was ready for them to cancel. They have just told me in the past they won't trigger until there is at least one follicle at 18mm. I questioned him about it and he said the bloodwork is saying there is a mature egg there. I know the 12mm follicle was squished behind the 15mm follicle so maybe it's bigger than what they can see??? I don't know. I'm hoping that the trigger will allow the follicles to get big enough and all works out. It just makes me nervous. Nothing else up to this point has gone "by the book" as they say. So I guess why should this "go by the book". I'm just very different and I need to accept that and see what happens.

    I am happy they are at least moving forward instead of canceling. I already had to pay for the cycle so I might as well see what happens. It will be an even more stressful 2ww than normal but I know I need to relax and calm down. I plan to talk to the director tomorrow for some reassurance. She is a lot easier to talk to and question than the actual doctors which is who I talk to on the weekends. So hopefully she will be able to explain things a little better and make me feel more at ease.

    But...IUI # 2 on Tuesday morning and the start of my 2ww. I should know if it was a success for Easter!

    Many prayers and positive thoughts need sent to PA!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    Goodness Becky, saying that you need to relax is a lot easier to say than do. Dont even feel bad for feeling a little bit of frustration. It sounds like you have been through the mill. Yes, I was also told 18 mm too, but with this last one I think it was a 17 and a 12. so keep your hopes up. Just imagine how amazing it is going to be when you feel your baby move inside you, and even how much more when you hold your child!!! Good luck. I will post my HCG as soon as I know tomorrow afternoon! Lots of prayers coming you way from Vegas!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    Well...IUI is officially tomorrow. I go to the office at 8:00 for IUI at 8:30ish. I'm excited and nervous. I spoke to the director today about my numbers. She said it's not "optimal" or by the book but nothing has been so far. She said she has had pregnancies occur from 15mm eggs in the past and my bloodwork showed I was ready. I asked her why they didn't have me do one more day of Follistim and she said since my follicle had stayed firm at 15mm it most likely wouldn't grow anymore and they didn't want to miss their chance and have my Estradiol drop again. So we'll see what happens! I think it's going to be an extra long 2ww knowing my odds aren't as good as they should be starting out. Although I keep telling myself if anyone can get pregnant with a 15mm follicle it would be me!
  • nisedmnisedm Posts: 87
    Keep you in my prayers becky, totally understand. Starting my 4th IUI cycle.
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    well becky, its time for your big day!!! and just remember you get pregnant the 1st time!!! so this will be it!!!

    My hcg today was 254!!! I have been having some abdominal pain that is waking me up at night, so he is going to check my urine to be safe. Then another hcg in 48 hours. An us in 6-8 days to see "how many implanted" says my RE!!! OMGoodness, something else to stress about!!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    That's so exciting Tomigrl. I can't wait to hear what your HcG is on Wednesday. Have you thought about twins before now? I've been preparing myself for that possibility for months now. Your Beta isn't terribly high. Did he think it was high and that's why he wants to check how many? Or does he just normally do that? It also seems really early for an u/s. What does he expect to see?

    Sorry so many questions. I'm just so excited for you!!!! CONGRATS!
  • Tomigrl5Tomigrl5 Posts: 132
    LOL, thats so fine becky! I have given twins thoughts. Ive decided that if God decides I should have twins thats what it will be. There were 2 good size follicles is all I am hoping he is referring to. Bc you are right, my hcg is ttly normal. I was thinking that time frame was pretty early too, but when I had my mc 2 yrs ago, ny first US was at 6 wks and we were able to see. I will be about 3-4 days shy of that.....so who knows. we will see!!!!
  • becky1141becky1141 Posts: 164
    Tomigrl...I'll be anxious to hear your HcG tomorrow. That should give you a peak into twins or not. I've told myself many times that whatever God gives me I'll take. At this point I'll take just about anything!

    My IUI is done. I am officially on my 2ww. I can't believe it. Everything looked good. My cervix was open which means they timed it perfectly. My vial had 14 million swimmers with 52% motility which I'm told is good. So there's nothing left to do but drive myself crazy waiting.

    I was told today that they've had success with some crazy u/s and bloodwork like mine and I think if there's a chance I can prove the stats wrong. The director told me she had twins once from a woman whose biggest follicle was 15mm. She also said she's had a pregnancy from someone whose Estradiol was only 100. That's pretty crazy and my Estradiol is a lot higher than that. But those stories gave me even more faith.

    It's all in God's hands now. I'll keep you posted. In the meantime I need to stay VERY busy.
  • MsMaryTMsMaryT Posts: 54
    Good luck with your 2ww Becky! I'm right there with you with my 2nd IUI on Monday. All looked good at the time, cervical mucus good, open cervix, 40million swimmers and 70% motility.

    So now deep breaths and lots of hoping and waiting :)
  • olearyeolearye Posts: 65
    Yay I love hearing a this good news and potentially even more good news. Tomigrl congratulations!!!! And Becky and MsMaryT good luck to both of you, sending you baby dust.
    Keep me updated!!!
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