Hello all,
This is my first time posting here and I'm just wondering if anyone out there has gone through multiple IVF cycles (I'm sure there are lots of you) and how did/do you get through it. I've gone through 6 IUI cycles and 2 IVF. Just started the 3rd IVF cycle. At this point, I no longer feel like a human being, just a robot whose entire life has been medicalized.
I also just turned 43 this month. Despite my age and all that can mean for becoming pregnant, I actually respond exceptionally well to the meds. This last cycle, one of my nurses told me that I have the ovaries of a 22 year old (I get the weirdest compliments in this whole TTC process). In my first cycle, they retrieved 12 eggs, 11 were mature & had ICSI, 7 fertilized, and 5 were available for transfer on day 3. In my second cycle, they retrieved 21 eggs (that was shocking!), 20 had ICSI, 16 fertilized, and still only 5 were available for transfer on day 3. So although I respond so well to meds, it just hasn't resulted in pregnancy yet.
This is the most emotionally challenging thing I've ever done in my life. In some ways, it's also the most physically challenging...needles completely freak me out and I verge on tears every time I have to inject myself (twice a day for 10 - 12 days). I just keep picturing me holding a baby at the end of all of this.
I apologize if this sounds like a pity party. I don't mean for it to. There just isn't anyone in my family or friends who truly understands the toll this all takes. I feel like I'm just fooling myself in thinking that it might work. I guess that ultimately I'm looking for some hope here. Any stories of going through IVF several times and having success?
Thanks for "listening" and for anything you can offer.
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