41 and wanting to start over
So I really don't know where to begin other then the basics, so hi all I'm emh54701 and I am the mother of three grown daughters ages 21, 19, and 19 (my younger two are twins). I had my older three the traditional way and my twins were concieved naturally I've never done anything like this. My oldest had her first and so far only child at 19 (I was 39) which I find ironic as I was the same age when I had her and turned 20 a month later.
My pregencay with my twins was high risk cause twins. It kind of freaked me and my now ex-husband out and he was supposed to get snipped but I was pressured into it instead...btw there's a reason he's an ex on top of that too but I digress. Once I became a single mom to my kids when they were younger I realized I didn't need a man to help me raise my kids, was it nice when I did have one around sure but having the constant harassing phone calls and being reminded I couldn't give anyyone I dated and possibly marry a family by my ex husband I became devestated that my time as a mother would be over sooner rather than later.
It took a few other relationships that didn't work for one reason or another to start looking into IVF and sperm donation. I wouldn't be able to do IUI or even a reversal due to the fact that my tubes were 90% scared when I was 22 and I'm now 41. Yet I feel very selfish for wanting to start over and question if I'm doing this for the right reasons. I also had to wonder if others out there in similar situations felt the same so I wanted to start this discussion to see what everyone thought and if anyone has been through a similar mindset like myself.
Thanks for listening and understanding.